Archive for April, 2017

Psychosis

Posted: April 23, 2017 in Quickie

As I walked down the narrow street, with my back to the oncoming traffic, I had an epiphany.

It hit me like a gut-punch>

it was the feeling of drowning…in a sea of blackness<the sinking feeling>of helplessness…not knowing how to climb out of quicksand>>
It’s Déjà vu<< I cannot believe that I’m back in the wormhole…maybe I never really escaped or is a better explanation a time loop? [stupid] >> am I the ‘cool’ type of crazy? << Or is it the psychosis the doctor [nurse] diagnosed? << can my brain form words to describe any of it?>>>
life is a conundrum of esoterica…is what we tell ourselves when shit gets too complicated to comprehend>< ><><><<><><><><><><<><>

I can only get my thoughts out in patches. Though I doubt I’m losing grip on what’s real…not just yet> I’m not losing sleep over anything, so my nights are fine<<< it’s the daytimes that drag on forever… a montage of heartaches>> [blip]the day I was happy might have been a glitch in the simulation[blip]<<<< the memories of all my everythings eventually turn to nothing<, does nothing mean anything><

maybe you’re toxic.>> maybe you’re not>> maybe you’re just paranoid<<<<<< the [nurse] would say you’re a paranoid schizophrenic<you’ll never win if you try<you’ll lose if you do nothing<<you’re going to be something great if you’re anything but who you are…simply because you suck<<<<<<< fuck you.